Has anyone felt like they are lost and don't know what they want? I know that no one is reading this, but I have to get this out. For the past year, I have had a pain inside of me that can't be filled. I have tried making lists (I am a list maniac), researching the meaning of life on google (as a joke), meditating, praying, shouting, writing, crying, anything...just hoping someone will hear me. I feel like I am supposed to be going out on a grand adventure, maybe not a big vacation, just do something with my life. I have watched a million movies, had a thousand dreams, read an amassment (I like that word =P) of books, but it just keeps me wanting more, more, more...I just want an adventure, a simple adventure of life, and I know that it is in my grasp, I just can't quite reach it because I cannot think of what it is. I ought to live spontaneously and I used to love life and know exactly who I was. I know that I am not supposed to completely understand who I am, but I just want to know what I could be doing right now! If anyone reads this, I hope you know what I'm talking about. Adios...
